It's bitter without you, I can't live without you.

The last week of high school, ever.

Senior project presentations, Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday.

Senior breakfast Thursday.

Field Day, Honors Assembly Friday.

Also Andy's graduation.

My graduation on the 17th.

This seems like it's supposed to be a week of relaxation, anticipation, even joy.

Why is it almost completely the opposite?

I feel trapped and emotional and sometimes I can't breathe.

(This could be because I haven't finished my presentation, grad speech, or parent speech yet, nor do I have $25 in cash for the senior gift to the school.)

I'm not ready for it to be over. I WANT it to be over, but I want the option of turning back the clock at times. I think I could be entirely happy about it if not for the connotations.

I dread my senior trip, even though it should be three days of fun up at Whistler. Maybe I'll even be able to sneak away to eat dinner at my favorite French restaurant..we'll see.

But as soon as I come back, I have to go to work, indoors, all summer.

And, oh God, I can't handle the impending separation. I know I'll fly to pieces.

It's definitely time to listen to Tom Petty.

Just what the truth is, I can't say anymore--because I love you..

In other news: cake.

I sort of want to stick my head in the oven along with it. Or set myself on fire.

Seattle International Film Festival

-Conversations with Other Women: quite excellent. Featured Helena Bonham Carter and witty, believable dialogue.
-Adam's Apples: weeeeird Danishy bit featuring a Neo-Nazi, a mildly deranged priest, and a cursed apple tree.
-Bickford Shmeckler's Cool Ideas: oh GOSH. SO GOOD. Braingasms galore.
-The Puffy Chair: failed utterly.
-Roots: pretty odd Russian comedy. I liked it.
-L'Iceberg: despite not being full of dialogue (when I watch French films, I like to hear them talk), it was fairly endearing and enjoyable enough.

May 26th: X-men 3.
May 28th: Sasquatch festival at the Gorge!
June 3rd: Alex's going away party; SIFF.
June 4th: SIFF.
June 8th: Alex graduates.
June 12th: Senior project presentations begin; Alex goes to Oregon.
June 13th: My presentation; SIFF.
June 14th: SIFF.
June 15th: Alex comes back from Oregon; SIFF.
June 16th: Andy graduates; SIFF.
June 17th: I graduate!
June 18-20th: Senior trip.
June 19th: Alex leaves.
September 25th: School begins.

[name] Inness!
[birthday] May 5th.
[Sex] On hold.
[Preference] Alex!
[Where do you live?] In a dark pit of despair.
[Five words that describe you] Spiraling downward into troubling depression.
[Eye color] Dark brown.
[Hair color] Double dark brown.
[Zodiac sign] Ice on my fingers and my toes and I'm a Taurus!
[Current location] Hell.
[Current clothing] Blue t-shirt, smoky jeans.
[Current hair style] Ugh.
[Current annoyance] Uberstress.
[Current smell] Woodsmoke.
[Current thing I ought to be doing] Presentation, essay, speech, stabbing myself with a turkey fork.
[Current CD in CD player] The Last Alex Mix.
[Current refreshment] I can't be refreshed, but I'm drinking Barq's. And what the hell, it's diet!?
[Time you got up] 10:39 a.m. (I went to bed at 5 a.m.)

Who is the last person:
[You talked to] Dad.
[You instant messaged] Alex, Andy, Ashley. I know a lot of A names.

[link]

See my friends and clubs: [link]
My cravings: [link]
At last, I can interpret those weird dreams: [link]
This is just awesome: [link] [link]

My greatest fear: that my sharp wit will someday slice my tongue in half.

Targets:

15k, green tea gnomes! Eeehee..
Birthday jazz!
Birthday woocha!
16k, Wash playing with his dinosaurs. ^^
~trivial0921 19k, Batou + buzz knucks